Iâ€™m no gardener. Iâ€™ve known this about myself for a long time. I donâ€™t attempt to decorate my house with thriving bunches of foliage. I know they will die a horrible death. My nurturing energies are directed toward my family, pets and friends. In that regard, Iâ€™ve got a gorgeous â€œbouquetâ€ to show you.
We all do a little pruning. We decide what is valuable and what is not in our lives. Mementos, jobs, people â€“ you name it, and at some point we have to decide if itâ€™s worth keeping. I prune. Iâ€™d like to think that the things I cut away are for my own good, but thatâ€™s only my opinion. Iâ€™m sure there are several old boyfriends and girlfriends who would think differently :). I have a hard time keeping girlfriends. Itâ€™s not that I donâ€™t like them; I just donâ€™t have the ability to interact well with them. I donâ€™t think Iâ€™m sophisticated enough to play the games. There are so many subtle nuances that just zip over my head and I end up confused and left behind. Men. I get it. They say something and thatâ€™s exactly what they mean. Thereâ€™s no double-speak. They rarely hold grudges. Women carry grudges forever. I think itâ€™s because we feel like we have to hold everything inside. Iâ€™m not so great at that either. I have grudges, but I have to speak up if I have a beef.
Iâ€™ve got a beef. Recently, Linda wrote about her alienating experience with a bulletin board. What some of you might not know is that Linda and I met there. I am blessed to have met a like-minded woman on the internet. It was a place where we could connect to discuss the ups and downs of pregnancy, infancy and toddler stages. It was also so much more than that. We got to know each other, all of us, and bond. We shared our deepest passions, sorrows, fears, joys, triumphs â€“ everything. It was like catching up to an armful of sisters, and it brought me much joy. Wellâ€¦.. we are women. Eventually, there were misunderstandings and hurt feelings. Some members pulled away. Our â€œbouquetâ€ felt the pinch of each loss and we just havenâ€™t thrived since. Those who remain still maintain strong friendships. For that I am truly grateful. Unfortunately, our little family has suffered some serious blows recently. Admin at this site severely affected our ability to communicate. Itâ€™s no longer up to us, the members of this bulletin board, to decide the direction in which we will grow. It saddens me. It angers me. It confuses me. Thatâ€™s women for you. Heavy pruning.
I have asked Linda to understand that she did not cause this. She is not the blight that caused our bulletin board family to decline. She is not a blight at all. It seems trite to say â€œtheir loss is our gainâ€ or â€œthey donâ€™t know what they are missing,â€ but itâ€™s true. And it stinks to be ripped apart from something you love.